Thursday

I am struggling to put down words.
It’s moment to moment.
But by this time each day i am so overwhelmed i start to lose the ability to process or think at all.

I had what today felt like a pretty full day of work.
But on a Thursday three weeks ago probably would not have felt quite so draining.

Time is doing its strange trick...
Waiting makes time go slower.
And that’s what’s happening right now.
Waiting on an epic global scale.

Poised. Waiting to feel the change.. to process.
It’s time.  And waiting. And change.

It’s looking for the helpers.
Looking toward those who are looking for the brightness in the corners of all this unknown darkness.
Looking for the people who are doing the work of life in the midst of this with some joy.

Realizing that we need to makes some shifts.
This week we have fallen in to some natural patterns.
When all. 5 of us are home... the kids tend to gravitate to Jen as our team lead.
And she gravitates naturally to that position...
And I, happy to be relieved of my typical afternoon kid navigation and refereeing,
Put on my headphones...
So... The next challenge is how to protect Jens time - and find some balance In leadership, in planning and execution/enforcement of our daily schedules. Some elements are becoming routine. Some things will likely be coming from the school...
But we’re gonna have to find ways to guard against that house full default of Jen has all the answers and enforces all the edicts... just so that she can stay sane, and get her work done